"Hearts' Day" is my step father's birthday.

I went to this Wedding and Debut Fair at Megamall yesterday. I was wearing my usual UP, uhh, commuter clothes meaning the blouse that is on top of the pile, blue jeans, backpack, and havs. Hair is extremely untidy and face is crazy with dirt. So I went to this ticket table and the lady asked if my name was listed. I said I wasn't listed so I had to fill this little form thing and buy a ticket. Then the girl asked, "What's the event, wedding or debut?" I have no idea if it's some sort of question she asks everyone or some attempt to start small talk. I was just flabbergasted. Do I look like I'm getting married already? (The whole exhibition was awesome though. It was fun looking around, getting cards, and tasting sample cakes and chocolates.)

I have been meaning to write in here. I have something on my planner actually, and it's not like I can't make the time for writing because as far as the first month of 2009, I have all the time in the world. I don't know. Maybe it's just that I'm really big on the procrastination thing.

Speaking of which, like most people, I have already broken most of my resolutions. Fast food will be my friend and junkies and sodas are part of me. I have not been really patient, kind or unenvious. And right now, I can't really remember the other things.

So the search for the 18th Rose is still on. I've come to desperate measures but nothing gives out positive results. I'm starting to accept reality though. Especially when the invites are supposed to be started on already. Ugh, the oddities of life. Whatevs.

Btw, one goal I have for this month is to meet up with an online friend. So, anyone interested?

If you people really want to communicate with or something, search for me in Facebook. I'm there more often.

Because we're in this bubble, an impenetrable bubble, and I must get out.

It is once again the time for resolutions and expectations. Why does it feel like it's the same intro with my last post? 2008 was a blast and I know a lot has changed but the thing is I'm not sure what. So this time, I'm writing, erm, posting them. And since I'll be going back to the beautiful place of Quezon City tomorrow at seven in the morning, I shall cut the chase and go straight to the point.

Here are the resolutions.

1. Cleanse, tone, and mosturize. Enough said.
2. Have a normal body clock. Other words, sleep early -- if possible.
3. Sodas and junk foods are the enemies. Must not make contact with them, ever.
4. Live in/for the moment. Stop obsessing about the future.
5. Be patient and kind and do not envy. Just like love, haha!
6. Hug mom more. Just because.
7. Stand up for thyself. Get some load of comeback lines!
8. Blog more often. Never neglect the blog.
9. Let thyself go, once in a while. It might do good.
10. Practice excellence. Or even just thinking. Whatever.

So yeah. If ever you guys see me slacking off or anything, feel free to give my head a little bump (emphasis on little) so I won't forget about these things that I actually just thought about.

Let's all rock this year. Fruitful 2009 everyone!

I shall do my rounds and overdue Teentalk Blog Reviews when I get back to Katips. :)

24 hours 'til deadline. Basically, I'm dead.

It is again the time for thank you's and year-end posts. But since I am the most affectionate person in this planet (insert sarcasm here), I have decided to just answer this survey I got from one of my multiply contacts. Feel free to grab and enjoy.

1) BUDDY OF THE YEAR?
- Baklits pa rin, no exceptions.

2) LIFETIME SERVICE AWARD (longest friend)
- Camille Arigo.

3) NEWCOMER AWARD (coolest new friend)
- KMS. Having to choose only one from them is torture.

4) HIGHEST POINT OF THE YEAR?
- Sometime in May. (I got to transfer to Dili.)

5) LOWEST POINT OF THE YEAR?
- First sem days? Haha.

6) BEST HOLIDAY
- Christmas.

7) SONG FOR 2008
- Better in Time by Leona Lewis

8) BEST MOVIE FOR 2008
- Gah, this is hard. But I'll say Sex and the City.

9) WHO DID YOU SPEND VALENTINES WITH AND WHERE?
- Step dad's birthday so with family here in Subic.

10) WHAT WERE YOU FOR HALLOWEEN?
- I'm not really big with costumes.

11) RESTAURANT OF THE YEAR?
- Aristocrat? Haha.

12) KISS OF THE YEAR?
- N and little J's kiss outside Agnes' place. Yeah, Gossip Girl, haha.

13) BEST DECISION MADE THIS YEAR?
- Joining KMS. Wow naman!

14) WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR NEXT YEAR?
- Throw a debut party that I'll treasure forever. Aww.

15) MOST STUPID IDEA WHEN DRUNK?
- Err, yeah, nvm.

16) TV SHOW OF THE YEAR?
- Gossip Girl (of course) and Ugly Betty.

17) MOST LOYAL FRIEND(s)?
- Err, baklits?

18) HEARTBREAKER OF THE YEAR?
- Betty's boyfriend (whose name is out of my mind at the moment).

19) BIGGEST CHANGE OF THE YEAR?
- Err, change of environment? Haha.

20) NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTION?
- Cleanse, Tone, Moisturize!

21) BLOCKMATE OF THE YEAR?
- Got no blockmates anymore but I have to say Ayeen, Kenneth, and Trish.

22) SITE OF THE YEAR?
- Facebook.

23) COUPLE OF THE YEAR?
- Mom and step dad.

24) FOOD OF THE YEAR?
- Peach Crepe from Katag, haha.

25) SUBJECT OF THE YEAR?
- Socio 11. Erika loves Ma'am Sheena.

26) SEATMATE OF THE YEAR?
- Cy Lumboy

27) STORE OF THE YEAR?
- Landmark! Haha.

28) CRUSH OF THE YEAR?
- Enchong Dee and Jake Cuenca. Haha!

29) MAYOR OF THE YEAR?
- Err, Subic Town's Mayor, of course.

30)PERSON OF THE YEAR?
- Mom is this year's rock star.

Ps. I was actually thinking of giving awards to people closest to me but people who actually read this blog may not know them anyways so I think this survey is a better year-ender. Wish me luck with my critical paper on the Theory of Practice and Reflexivity!

Pa-rum-pa-pum-pum!

I may not have this yet:Railroad Romance by Brian Auer

Retrieved: 122708 (Flickr)

But I have this:

And for that, I am extremely grateful.
Happy Holidays!

I'm turning 18 on the 4th of March, 2009.

And yes, I admit, I'm freaking out a little.

Oh no, this is not about me and my fears of growing old and having responsibilities and blah blah. It's more of the party I think I want to have in celebration of this event and everything else.

I used to be really excited about this. I chose not to celebrate "much" in my past birthdays thinking that my mom will be spending some a lot on this event. I've written a partial guest list sometime in July of this year. I've done a lot of thinking and reading about what should be done and what should not be. Even the people around me have been waiting for this all of my life. All right, maybe that's just an exaggeration but you get the point.

The thing is, now that we're starting to plan, I feel like my head has been filled up with gas and I can't seem to find and use my brain. I can't think of what I really want or how I really want things. Ugh, I don't know. Maybe the fact that I really don't want them to spend so much affects me subconsciously. Or maybe I just don't really want to get my hopes so high up and then get disappointed after wards if I don't get the party I've pictured in mind.

Or maybe, I'm just obsessing with the fact that, as of the moment, I still don't have anyone for that 18th rose.

It's stressful. Things have not even started yet and I'm already going crazy. Blame Ugly Betty.